drifters, vagabonds, gypsies, jesters

Doing an image search of some of the above words is dangerous. Especially if you are a minister sitting in staff meeting. (Begin frantic mashing of the X button on the top left corner of the safari window. #holycrapoops!!)
Had I been born 20 years later I'm sure I would have been diagnosed with ADD/ADHD. That wasn't really popular while I was growing up. We had Ritalin then but it was pronounced spanking and I had regular doses...
wandering...
OK, so after being embarrassed by some of the images that popped up on my screen I opted for the Kawasaki Vulcan Drifter. Motorcycles are safe to look at. Until I start thinking about how much I want one.

All of that to say that my wife, kids, and I are drifters now.
Vagabonds
Gypsies
Jesters (Asa Gretchen and I were all born into that name but the other ones chose it. suckers)

We're out of our house. We didn't have much lead time regarding the house we were living in. We immediately began the loan pre-qualification process and started looking. We've offered on several houses. For whatever reason we haven't found one yet.

After 5 PODS, 12 van loads and 5 friends who are willing to harbor our stuff for an indefinite period of time we've moved. We ACTUALLY have friends who said "sure, the 10 of you can come live with us". Seriously, who does that? Better friends than I deserve. This morning after scrambling 16 eggs and toasting enough bread to re-stock Panera I loaded my kids in the Pilot (that had arrows, a burr grinder and a basket with a toilet snake in it) and drove them to school. Some of our stuff is constantly moving because it's in our vehicles. In our van 2 of the 7 seats are usable. That drives me just a bit crazy... well, crazier...

There's a feeling of malaise. I'm learning that as a man not only is my identity tied up in what I do but it is also linked to how I provide for my family. That's kind of a new revelation for me. Maybe because I've never been in this spot before. I don't like it. But I am waiting. Because really at this stage of the game there's nothing more that I can do.